It used to be that I could take 2-3 days off in a row and emerge well rested. Mostly by allowing myself to rest as appropriate, bask in some silence, boost my mood with some empowering reading, meditation and reflection. Basic conscious nourishment. By day 1.5-2 I could feel a sense of renewal and rejuvenation begin to well up, especially when I limitted noise and TV. I’d emerge from my 3 days FULL, energized, with ideas to spare.
I struggle with energy alot since I’ve switched to peg tube feedings, and I’m trying to find liquid supplements that support the highest operation of my cells. I mean what will it take? Do I have unrealistic expectations? I just don’t think I should feel like shit more often than not. Is that too much to ask? I rarely have caffiene- unless I get a headache in which case a few sips of coffee does wonders!! (So does liquid Children’s tylenol in my morning Myoplex!-42g’s of protien- woo hoo!) I’ve just completed 2 wks of tea from a local Chinese Dr. which seemed to make an impact for a minute…
Currently I’m using Floravital, liquid vitamins, iron and herbs as a supplement as well as Peter Gillham’s Natural Vitality “Natural Life Minerals” and Chrlorophyll, Adrenalift from Macca Magic and fresh juiced veggie juices strained over and over until they work in the gravity bags with out clogging it up. I have a history with anemia, so I can see being more consistent with the Floravital with iron making a difference. The problem I am having with my “food” is that it’s so processed that it’s lightyears away from FRESH. It FEELS lifeless. After an initial 12lb drop I’ve gained 5 back and stabilized at 145 ish. I did buy the Health Master emulsifying blender so this week when my folks come we will play with it and hopefully have a pathway for fresh veggies to enter my system again!
It is a mystery. Am I just making it wrong? Perhaps it’s just that the body needs rest…but then I feel as though I’m resting my way to more weakness! NO NO NO. WRONG DIRECTION!! I have a trampoline by my window now and I can “run/bounce” up to 5 minutes using the support bar. This is a major accomplishment.
And so the Quest remains: Mind over Matter…Do I pick this battle or channel my energy into my writing and say screw it? Is that a choice really? It not easy to pick out what’s the priority when the sands keep shifting…right now I’d settle for feeling rested and being productive RELIABLY. once more…
