Yes I KNOW Chemo sucks and it’s poison and it’s dreadful and nauseating and all that Jazz, my brother went through 4 rounds of the stuff last year in his battle with the big C…but hey at least it’s a treatment! I was suprised too find myself mildly jealous of the opportunity Chemotherapy was for him as I watched him care for his 6 month old triplets over the holidays. So, more accurately said, while I wouldn’t wish the process on my worst enemy, I am jealous of the OPPORTUNITY that chemotherapy is for people with cancer, not the method or the concept of poisoning oneself in order to survive.
The opportunity allows for one to focus one’s mind more readily on being well, and getting rid of the dis-ease in the body. I am amazed at the array of resources for folks with cancer, oddly it feels like I’m a kid outside the candy store looking in through the frosted glass, “Oh what I wouldn’t give for a chance…” I cannot be alone in this if truth were told. Anyone with any condition that has no treatment must experience the same thing at sometime or another. The opportunity to DO SOMETHING! To put your idea into action in a way that can be measured, tested for it’s efficacy…to feel one can make some progress, priceless!
This is why research is so important. This is why I turn to alternative health practices to bolster my mindset against the foe I am facing. I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING! I get a massage every week to preserve my muscle tone and release the tension/pain in my back and shoulders. I do occasional rawfood cleanses to detox my body from heavy metals and all that our modern enviroment brings. I keep lots of plants and life around me in my home. I watch funny movies. I do the work to clear and complete any emotional/mental barrier that may be in the way of my self healing. This is why I dig up the rocks of the past and own up to my own severe case of ass-hole-ism and apologize for it to people who no longer know me. I will dig and look and transform and turn myself inside out to create a pathway for healing. So when I put my spinach,carrot,ginger,garlic,celery juice in a wine glass, next to my green tea, don’t laugh! It’s my Chemo.