Thank GOD! I was getting seriously bored with being such a BITCH. I am clear the upset over the way my care was mishandled on 3/7 and 3/8 is a cause worthy of correction but I was really tired of being a walking complaint! Jeez oh Peez. Part of that I’m clear had to do with being in pain from 6pm 3/7 til yesterday at exactly 1:20pm.
And the department who me called on tuesday? the one in my last Post? THEY DID A FANTASTIC JOB WITH ME. YEAH! Interventional Radiology Staff! WOO HOO. Praise be to all that’s holy in anyone’s religion. I actually felt taken care of~ a pleasant suprise. They were cordial, professional light hearted and funny while being compassionate and direct. AT LAST.
I am clear how often I took being pain free for granted in the past. I have been more grateful in the last 24 hours than at any other time in my natural life. No Kidding. I seriously thought life as I knew it was over, and life with a peg tube meant constant pain. (turns out the wound around the tube was infected) I could barely see how I would manage to get myself out of my apt on a regular basis if that’s how I was feeling…could not put my own shoes on , couldn’t sleep well, lift more than 12-16 oz at a time~ which begs for a whole nother habit all together, I thought seriously about worshipping Rum and Tequila, because childrens tylenol wasn’t cutting it! I had this heinous vision of myself as a disheveled hag drunk in a bathrobe with a peg tube sticking out. Charming.
I was so relieved I didn’t even fight Dr. Wolfe on the stomach binder suggestion. I think the poofy tummy I have is from all the drugs and surgery, she thinks it’s that my abdominal muscles have deteriorated to the point of distension. Lovely. I’ll do a raw food cleanse and we’ll see who’s right, I suspect we both are. It wouldn’t hurt me to drop all the comfort food I’ve been eating since my surgery…my normal no dairy/ no soy went right out the window. Ben and Jerry’s profits will be up this quarter. And my girlfriend’s chef- boy made me organic mac n cheese…You wouldn’t turn it down either.
Now that I feel like a human being again versus a wounded caged animal, all kinds of miracles are showing up!
Get back on your horse about you Goals for the new year & STOP CALLING THEM RESOLUTIONS! RESOLUTIONS ALWAYS REFER YOU TO A PAST FAILURE VERSUS A GOAL WHICH CREATES THE FUTURE.