So, I know that I will one day return home to my creator, God. And if I was sent to Earth by my creator, it was for my creator that I was sent here. All to often I think I begin to believe that my own purpose from moment to moment is really worth anything. I’ve given my purpose over to God, thus taking my own selfishness out of the picture. I will always have moments of stupidity where I start to convince myself that I have any sort of meaning beyond God’s purpose for my life. Or that I AM the one in control, because as we all know, we really aren’t in control of anything. If we look back at everything that we’ve “controlled” at one time we learn that control can be taken away at anytime.

When I rely on the Lord for what His purpose for my life is no matter the situation, it’s no longer my call as to what living life is all about or what’s acceptable to be called living. It’s just my job to live a life that fulfills His purpose for me.

James 1 1-7
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

When I am upset or sorrowed, it comes from the thought that my own desire or will may go unfulfilled. Perhaps it’s the thought that what I had will be lost. However, when my will is His, I can rejoice in my loss for the greater of His kingdom and my faith is promised to bring me home!